So I am a worrier. And when I am told that I'm going to hear news about a close family member's health on a certain day directly from them, and then I'm not contacted by them on that day, I panic. And when I can't call the only person in the country who would have news because they can't answer their mobile at work and their work number is going straight to answerphone, I really panic.

This thing has been hovering over me for a week, and waiting for today has felt like counting down to a really shitty Christmas.

Update: Slightly worse than we'd expected, mastectomy is taking place in a fortnight. Fuck. This time last week I didn't know anything was even wrong.