I have a lumpectomy scheduled in a couple of weeks. I could wait a few more weeks and wait for the BRCA testing to come back, but I agree with my breast surgeon that this thing should just come out. If I need to have a mastectomy later, then I'll do that later.

I'm too lazy to look at my last update, so I don't remember if I mentioned it, but the MRI results were good. They don't see anything other than the known mass. That's good news, but I won't let myself be relieved until after I have the surgery and the full pathology comes back.

My other big thing I'm confronting is fertility preservation. It's kind of a nightmare. Even with the cancer discounts, the egg harvesting (and IVF - if we go that way) is still fucking expensive. It's just a big ole punch to the stomach. I'm told the follicle stimulating hormones aren't dangerous and they'd put me on an estrogen suppressing medication to keep me extra safe, but it's still so very scary. I mean, this technology hasn't been around a that long. Anyway, it all just kind of sucks, but I'm trying to keep myself in good spirits and keep myself distracted with Christmas stuff.

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Oh, and I have to say that I have a good friend who came through for me in a really big way and I'm so very grateful for her. I'm pretty lucky in that respect.