GODDAMMIT.

TARA NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Just finished the episode. Watching Willow feed her applesauce made me cry harder than when Buffy's mom died. Because I did that. I fed my ex's mom with a spoon near the end of her life, when the cancer had almost completely erased the person I knew. Fuck.

THIS IS THE WORST WEEK.

Also, one of my rats has a tumor. It's getting huge and I took her to the vet. She found two more tumors and the low estimate for surgery is $580. I have a little over $600 in my bank account to last the rest of July. I almost started crying in the examination room.