Thank you so much for all of your kindness and ideas. Here’s an update.

My therapist was very helpful but also worried. She wanted to be sure that the dissociation wasn’t related to my bucketful of medication for bipolar. She had me meet with the doctor and he confirmed that it was from PTSD and not a medication side effect. He prescribed me to Clonidine (which I guess is a blood pressure med but is commonly used for PTSD) to see if it will stop my nightmares and hyperarousal (not the fun kind). My therapist and I figured out that this week is the anniversary of the assault so that makes sense that it would trigger me. She really wants me to drop something from my schedule since I’m in 5 classes, working 2 jobs, and an officer for a club at school. We made a plan and I feel confident. Not waking up all fucked up helped that, too.

So thanks again for your concerns and advice. Your kindness meant a lot when I needed it the most. Thanks, y’all.