Every time I clean my studio (in my house) - when my task for the moment is cleaning, and NOT making art - I just want to screw it up again. I'm like OH LOOK AT ALL THIS ROOM I HAVE NOW! Not only that, I almost 100% of the time don't want to work on whatever project it is I'm supposed to be doing and I start coming up with new ones in my head and then start googling ideas and writing them down. AND NEVER DOING THEM. My mind is just always moving too quickly.

Then, when my studio is a clusterfuck and I have to make a piece for one reason or another, I can't get anything done. NOTHING. I am in glittery, painty filth and I hate it.

When I have straight up free time, and I go, "today I'm going to make something for myself," I suddenly have no ideas. I've never had an idea. All the ones I wrote down or sketched out are worthless.

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So, in the end, I am super unproductive. I am the worst at working for myself. I work like 30 hours a week at a job, and then supplement by making art and doing floorplans and other miscellaneous freelance - which I love.

But I am just the queen of procrastinating. THE QUEEN. It's not just internetting. It's texting. It's petting my dog. It's staring off into space. It's cleaning. I do a million productive things at the wrong times.

ARGH.