GT, you guys seem to know a thing or two about depression. I apologize in advance if this post comes off as ignorant or offensive in any way. My question is: how do you know if you have depression? How do you know when it is time to talk to a professional?

In the past year, I've been really emotionally down. I don't like my job, I don't have many friends in this town, and the job and wedding planning were keeping me stressed out all year.

I see depictions of depression and feel like they describe me very well on certain days. The heavy heavy weight inside, like your soul is dragging on the ground. Looking at other people having fun and feeling kind of...empty about it. Waking up in the morning and wondering if I get in a car accident today, could I not go to work and not have to talk to anybody, but somehow not be hurt seriously enough that it would be permanent. Sitting at work, clicking at the same couple things over and over again even though I've read everything on the site already. Knowing all the things I could, should do to bring my mood up but not finding the strength to do them.

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I've just been listless, low energy, and deeply deeply profoundly sad for reasons that I honestly can't articulate. It isn't like this every day, or all day, but it's been bad enough for me to recognize that something is off. I feel like I've lost myself (and apparently now I write like a cliched teenager).

I don't know what to do or where to start to make it better. How do you know if it's a year-long rut, or something worse?