...not that I'm not usually happy or in a good mood. But things are going well with this new person I'm seeing and I'm doing my best to just enjoy it and not freak out or over think things. Every time I see someone new that I like a lot things end very abruptly or badly (or both) and I am used to disappointment.

I think it doesn't help that the last time someone behaved similarly with me it didn't go well because he was seeing someone the entire time he was seeing me (plus lying and other stuff I don't feel like getting into). I feel like I'm deathly afraid of someone faking being in a relationship with me. I know it's irrational but I guess it ties back into my self-esteem and other things. Does anyone else have trouble accepting when things are going well and to just let things flow?

I'm trying to just live in the moment and not over analyze things but I'm not a "go with the flow" kind of person. I'm kind of a planner and over analyzer...Yeah. Any tips so I can not head down this path? I'm happy now but I will get insecure and scared pretty soon...