I am now Snow Princess Frostybutt. Considering that my butt does get quite cold during the winter, I find this rather fitting!

I also forgot to tell you guys yesterday, something nice happened and I wanted to share it.

My ex and I spoke last night for a bit, and I'm not going to relay the entire conversation because that is rather unnecessary. But one thing he said stuck with me and it made me feel really...good.

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At one point I told him "I will always love you and care about you very, very much, no matter what our relationship is. And I know that you care and cared about me and love me, I never doubted that."

And he replied "I'm happy you know that. I do love and care about you, I'm just not fit for a relationship. I know I snapped at you a lot and took a lot out on you, and I'm so sorry. You did nothing to deserve that. You're a great person and were a great girlfriend. I never meant to hurt you and I'm sorry for any times I did."

It was just a very nice thing to hear, and it kind of flipped a switch in my mind that made me realize "oh, it wasn't me." I know a lot of people told me that, but I think I needed to hear it from him. And I obviously can't convey how he said it through text, but it was very, very genuine and sincere.

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I don't want anyone to think that the conversation we had was us saying we are still in love or want to be with each other or anything. It was a long conversation about a lot of things, mostly us giving the other closure (on my end I told him that he's a good person and that I don't hate him, and I know he tried very hard, and that he deserves love whether it's from me or someone else, and I hope he realizes that one day) so we could potentially have a solid friendship at some point in time. Not right now, for obvious reasons, but this is a step in the right direction.

It just...made me feel nice. *Shrug.