I don’t want to speak to soon. I’ve been in my business for too long to accept anything at face value. Most ad agencies cultures are toxic. They range from stupid-but-manageable to dear-god-I-will-chew-my-arm-off-to-get-out-of-here-I-hate-myself.

I started at a new agency last month. The money isn’t very good (liveable, but kind of barely,) and the commute is long (almost an hour on public transit). BUT...the work is interesting, the people are really great, and it’s ok to say “I don’t know how to do this. Please help me.” My account supervisor actually said “Hey...it’s ok. This is a safe space to learn. Tell me what you need” when I was getting rattled. People actually rally around you and pitch in. There are regular lunch & learns to brush up your skills and stay updated on the industry. I have yet to meet an asshole there. I have to work tomorrow, and I’m surprisingly ok with it, because it will get me to a good space, and I’m not doing it alone.

I’ve been asking for this for a long time. I’ve been saying I want an agency with good people, where I can sink my teeth in and learn the skills I need to advance my career, while doing really great work. I think this might be it. I’m kind of terrified that I’m buying into the hype, it will all come crashing down, and three months from now I’ll be here saying I WAS WRONG I WAS SOOOOO WRONG. And I’m on a contract->staff agreement, which I feel is inherently unstable, so of course I’m always a bit worried about that.

But I haven’t picked up any red flags. There’s the politics that’s inherent in any job, which seem pretty clear, but none of it seems overwhelming. I don’t know...maybe I’ve found a home for awhile? Maybe it actually is possible? I almost burst into tears today because it’s pizza friday, and they ordered gluten free pizza for me. The last agency I worked at the person in charge of that deliberately didn’t order food I could eat, because I guess having a wheat allergy means I think I’m special and better than everyone, and she couldn’t have me thinking that.

So please, wish me luck and think good thoughts for me. I really need this. I really, really, really want this to work.