I hate it. I hate it I hate it I hate it. I've been doing this for FOUR YEARS. I have at best one and a half more years to go, but it's looking like two years, because I am not going to pass this directed study class. And it's for my thesis work.

My instructor wants me to be able to specify every single component in my thesis project. It's a fucking tablet. I don't know SHIT about electronics. And I don't mean making a list of what needs to be in there, which I have done many times over. He want to know WHICH chip, and WHICH wifi antenna, and WHICH battery, and how large the printed circuit board needs to be, and where the bits go on the board, and HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THAT? I can design the form, the ergonomics, the interface, the PURPOSE, and describe the need, and why I'm making this, and the research behind it until the cows come home, but I absolutely CANNOT design the electronics. You know why? I'M NOT AN ENGINEER. This is ART SCHOOL. It would take a team of 30 engineers to do this shit! Is this man smoking crack?

I can't drop out. My work is paying for this degree, and if I give up I have to pay it all back and I absolutely cannot afford that. So I'm stuck, and I'm miserable, and I'm tired, and I come home form work everyday and I cry, and then I do homework and I cry, and then I drink whiskey and go to bed. I'm so burned out. I'm so exhausted. I so don't care anymore.

I just had to rant.