I'm having a terrible terrible day. And time. And I'm in a mood.

I love Halloween. It's usually my favorite holiday. I love dressing up. I love going out to parties. I love either having a creative costume, a slutty costume, or a creative slutty costume. I love making out with someone in a mask and never having them take it off and then, who the fuck knows who they were?

Tonight, I stayed in, cried, and felt sorry for myself.

My 28th birthday is coming up. I've been single since a bit after my 24th. I had issues, I had people want to date me, I never felt like I connected with anyone.

I'm starting to think I never will. My one long term relationship was abusive. My best male friend raped me. I clearly have excellent judgement.

I'm just feeling like I'll never love and be loved. I feel like I'm not worth it, I feel like I'm too fat for it, I feel like I'm going to be snuggling my stuffed penguin (Baron Heinrich von Heinrichson) for the rest of my life because I'll have no one else.

Someone say something nice to me? Please?