I’m very sad, like the rest of us. Why does David Bowie’s death strike such a chord? Other than it being unexpected, a celebrity death has never affected me this way. I’m not even like, a diehard fan. Just a regular fan. I didn’t even realize he just dropped an album.

I think it struck a chord because we thought he was immortal. If Bowie can die, I can die.

I was up not sleeping all night and decided to just get up and start my day around 4am. I think my spider-sense knew. I sensed a shift in the world.

I had this train of thought, reading comments and FB posts and whatnot.

  • “I wonder what David Bowie would be feeling to read all of these things about him”
  • “He’s probably looking down on us reading this. He knows what we’re saying. He knows how we are reacting.”
  • “Wait a second, I don’t believe in god.”

I literally came the closest I’ve been (in like 20 years) to a religious thought because of David Bowie. I didn’t even have those “looking down on me” thoughts for my grandparents and other people close to me I’ve lost over my life.

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The obvious thing is that he’s looking down on us from space right? I want to go to space when I die.

True fact: My husband wants his ashes sent to space when he dies. I hope that’s not as expensive whenever that happens....

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I am listening to Bowie’s final album, Black Star, right now on Spotify. I like it so far. It’s suiting my mood; I wasn’t ready to listen to the Bowie I’ve always known yet. I needed a different Bowie to mourn this morning. Bowie’s music is so timeless - it still has his sound, feels both old-fashioned but not out of place at all.

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I keep getting chills and tears in my eyes that the man recorded (and maybe wrote) these songs when he knew he was dying of cancer, I presume.

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RIP, Brother.