I don't want to do this anymore. I'm too sad and too lonely and too desperate for attention/friendship/love. I'm pathetic and I feel even more pathetic around all you wonderful funny people. I'm sick of making everyone feel bad for me but I don't know how to do that. So I think I'm just gonna stop posting for a while. Maybe forever. Idk. I just wish I could go to sleep and never wake up or maybe just wake a completely different person? Just wanted to let you know what's going on so no one worries. I really do want to thank you all for dealing with my shit. And for the advice. And for the ears.