Deleted my last post because it had a bunch of personal stuff in it and I know my rant was kind of a shit show. I seem to have moved from the pissed and onto the crying stage of handling this mess.

Hanging in there for now but all my friends and family are out of state so I have been feeling pretty alone. My roommate says she is okay via text. She is with her family now. No indication of if or when she plans to come back or anything like that.

I feel my own depression being triggered by this and by the goddamn neverending rain, so netflix has been my best friend today.

Thanks to everyone who has been supportive.

I just can’t process that this really happened. I feel like I drove my best friend to near suicide and the more I think about it the worse I feel, all sick and disgusted with myself. Everything hurts.