I have been in pieces for months, and everything in my life that matters has hung in the balance. Many things remain unresolved. I am in love with Fellow, and he has to decide whether he will allow our relationship to continue given my emotional issues.

My great aunt is dying. So, my visits to CA aren’t necessarily about him.

I need to focus on school and getting well psychologically, but my relationship is my priority. I don’t know how to make Fellow realize all this. Maybe I should drop everything and fly there? I am calling him daily. I don’t know if he wants a visit. What should I do?

I am exhauted and confused.