So I saw my doctor today for my six week postpartum check up. Things are looking good. I got the go ahead for sex (already did it this weekend, oops!), exercise, and living life in general. We discussed birth control options and I'm leaning towards Mirena. I didn't really want to deal with hormones this time around but I hate the idea of having unpredictable, heavy periods. I was honest about the sex Mr. Haa and I had this last weekend and the fact that we skipped the condom in the heat of the moment. Stupid, I know, especially since I think I got my period back. My lochia had pretty much disappeared and then I got heavier, period-like bleeding again for a few days. Then it was gone completely. So that sucks. My doctor is making me wait two weeks to take a pregnancy test and if it's negative she'll go ahead with the IUD insertion. I promise to use condoms until then. The thought of another pregnancy this soon is my idea of hell.

I was also honest about how I've been feeling emotionally post baby. Which is not that great. My anxiety is at an all time high, I've already blogged about my body image issues (stretchmarks and the extra 20 pounds I need to lose aren't helping), and some days I practically throw Baby Haa at Mr. Haa when he gets home. But the good days outweigh the bad so I was thinking this was more along the lines of baby blues. Apparently those should be over by now. I'm going to start Sertraline (generic Zoloft) and am being referred to a counselor. Any idea what to except taking Sertraline or other SSRIs in general? Especially if you happened to be breastfeeding at the time. I've never taken anti-depressants or seen a therapist for these issues before. I'm a little scared. Words of encouragement are also appreciated.