I'm supposed to deal with this for years? I'm not strong enough and I just don't want to do this anymore. I hate my brain. It's broken and unfixable. Medications haven't done anything but give me something I could potentially overdose on. Which sounds so good right now. This is too hard and I am too weak. I'm so tired of not fitting in of not being happy with my on paper perfect life. Becoming a mom ruined me.