And things I don't do, anymore, and some things that no longer bother me. (TW ED talk.)

Things I can do, now:
1). Eat in front of people.
2). Eat, in general.
3). Feel okay at potlucks.
4). Enjoy food and not feel guilty about it.
5). Cook a meal and eat it, too.

Things I don't do, anymore:
1). Weigh myself more than once every couple of weeks.
2). Count calories.
3). Not have a meal if I've already had one that day.
4). Obsessively check my belly in mirrors to see if it's flabby.
5). Shrink my clothes in the dryer so I have an excuse to lose weight.
6). Replace meals with cigarettes or caffeine or narcotics.
7). Read food blogs all day.

Things that no longer bother me:
1). People calling me skinny. I say "I know" and that's the end of that.
2). People asking if I'm okay. Yeah, I am. How are you?
3). People asking why I'm so skinny. I have an eating disorder. How are you?
4). People asking if that's all I'm going to eat. I did my best. I'm full. Deal.

I'm a lot better than I used to be but I'm still on the slight side. I gained 10 pounds and I'm not dizzy or faint feeling all the time, now. I feel really good. I feel (gasp) almost healthy. And it was hard to get to this point, but I'm happy. People don't know how much effort I've put into getting better, but it's been a 5+ year struggle.

But it's not any of their business, anyway, and I think that's part of why the concern trolly schtick doesn't bother me, anymore.

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I'm also too proud of how far I've come to let somebody who doesn't know anything about me bother me.