And my car is deemed unfit to drive across the country. We have tickets to a music festival in a week and a half. I've been looking forward to going home and seeing my family for months. It's been the only thing getting me through exams.

What's probably going to happen is I'm going to end up flying home for the summer without the Constable. My parents are willing to pay for his plane ticket (they're definitely paying for mine because I am super broke right now), but he doesn't feel comfortable accepting that. Which I totally get, but I'm so sad right now. We haven't had time together that wasn't overshadowed by the stress of grad school in so long. And we were going to have a road trip together and a whole summer in the Midwest (he's also from the Midwest, so we were going to visit his hometown as well). I don't know. I feel a bit like an ungrateful brat, because I know how lucky I am that my parents can afford to buy me a last-minute ticket home (although it turns out it's not much more expensive than usual, thank goodness). It's just been such a hard year and I'm just so burned out and all I wanted was to go home and spend time with all the people I love the most.