Having trouble sleeping, having trouble eating. Feeling sorta sick to my stomach. My daughter was very clingy this morning before school. She sat in my lap and we rocked a long time. It felt good to me too. I have been reading about breast cancer on the internet. I didn't know anything. Why couldn't these awareness campaigns have actual information people need to be aware of? Like what risk factors there are? Instead of what color your underwear is. I was going to skip mammograms because they hurt. I thought this was about a sinus infection. Swollen tender feeling in my armpit goes back years. I can feel the lump. It had an irregular border on the ultrasound. Why didn't I ask more questions when I watched her scanning it so closely? I wasn't scared at all because I knew it was nothing. It's always nothing. I hope it's nothing.