All the standard mental health, anxiety, etc trigger warnings apply.

It's taken two and a half years of resistance, but I have finally opted to seek out a therapist after a long hiatus. I had been treated for anxiety in college and when I graduated I moved so many times that I gave up on establishing relationships with health care professionals. That method worked well for me for a few years, but over the last 2.5 years my anxiety has gotten increasingly worse. Last month I tried to call a local office and they basically said it would be months until they could see me because they had no openings.

Since I really don't want to live the rest of my life this way, and with EleanorAquitaine 2.0 on the way, I want to establish some healthier habits. So I break down, go to a psychiatrist who strongly recommends against me taking my anti-anxiety meds because of the pregnancy, get a formal diagnosis, and receive a recommendation for a therapist. I'm unmedicated and untherapied and one of those has to change.

So on Friday, I call the number and have to leave a message. I clearly state my name and number twice and why I am calling. It's now Wednesday, and they haven't called me back. So I call this morning and get through to a secretary. Again I give my information and explain that I had been referred to see a specific therapist.

"You won't be able to. She already has a full schedule."

Me: "Um, okay...I guess. Well..."

"I'll look at the schedule to see who is available and call you back in just a few minutes."


That was at 8:56 this morning. It is now 5:02. At this point I'm pretty confident that I'm not getting a callback.

This really peeves me because 1) It's taken me a *LONG* time to seek help, and I want it *NOW*. A setback like this makes the voices that say that therapy is a waste of time and a hassle louder. And 2) This is the mental health field. There are some fields where delaying a response makes sense—for example, I can't imagine there are frequent emergencies in, say, dermatology, though I might be mistaken. I realize that a failure to plan on my part does notjustify an emergency on her part, but the combination of the ignored message + no call back is frustrating. I live in an area where medical care is really spotty, and there are almost no alternatives other than this office.