I don't know any of my family on my dad's side. His sister friended me on Facebook, and she's the only one I even vaguely know of. (Aunt Cathy <3)

But I can't understand most of her status updates because they're all in Spanish. My dad made sure not to speak Spanish to his kids because he didn't want anyone to think that we are Hispanic.

I used to speak Spanish to him when I was younger but he would always answer in English. (*Ingles, por favor.*)

I feel like an orphan, culturally.

Most people can tell I'm not white. But when people assume I can speak Spanish and I can't, I feel like a total failure.

The funny part is I can speak Spanish, somewhat. But when someone assumes I'm fluent I lose it all.


No hablo.