guys, I have to admit something that's really, really hard for me to talk about, something that's making me so sad I haven't been around much, haven't told most of my irl friends either.
Things aren't going so well with me and GreenHunk. He started school in the fall, and I knew it was going to be difficult but I didn't know how difficult. He's kind of irresponsible and has failed out of school several times already (all before I met him). He's struggling to manage time, and he's doing a lot of things that make me feel really sad and ignored. I know it has nothing to do with him not caring about me, specifically, but it's still awful. We've talked about it, but I don't know if he's decided he's willing or able to make the compromises necessary to make it work. I don't think he knows either. We really, really love each other and want to be together, but I'm not sure if we can stay together and I'm terrified. I know what I want, and I know I'm willing to do the work necessary. I'm not sure if he's there with me. I'm going to be talking to him about couple's therapy today. 8 months before our wedding and I'm thinking seriously about postponing it, if not calling it off. I really hope I don't have to do that.
Here's hoping we can fix things. I don't know what I would do without him.
ETA: Thank you all so, so much for your advice and help. He actually came and saw me on my lunch break today, and I talked to him about contacting a counselor and he was totally open to it. So I've sent out a couple emails already and hopefully we can start going by next week. I also mentioned postponing the wedding to him, and he was soooooo sad about the idea. I think he really does want to be a good partner and be with me. I told him let's wait and see, go to therapy and talk to a professional, see what they think about postponing. Maybe we both just need some education about communicating effectively and we'll be fine. I think we'll make our decision on that in the next few months. So I think this is a hopeful start.