As most of you know, I am a 41-year-old college junior (-ish). Midterms are upon us and so I thought I’d take a minute to look at how my first semester back after a 14-year absence is going.
It’s going REALLY FUCKING WELL. So many things had to line up for me in order for all of this to work, and the universe is really working hard in my favor this time. For instance, now that I know I have ADHD and I’m not just a flaky asshole who loses things, life has been SO MUCH BETTER. Knowing that How I Am is a thing that is happening TO me and not BECAUSE of me has changed my whole entire life. It’s glorious.
My classes are all SO INTERESTING. It helps that I’m doing the work and getting the readings done, which is new for me (haha). In one of my classes, I’m the only one who IS doing the readings so the professor and I spend 80 minutes discussing my interpretations of what he’s assigned. It’s hilarious. Before, I would have been embarrassed to be the only person running the discussion but now? If you don’t speak up, then that’s on you, kids. I will take everyone’s participation grade and eat it for lunch.
Having 20 years (or more) of Life Experience on some of these kids has made a huge difference in the way I write. I have SO much more to draw from and I feel like my voice is so much more solid than it’s ever been. My creative writing class is excellent because it’s basically blog posts about music and I have 20 years’ more to choose from than my classmates. Some of them are really sharp and into a lot of stuff I’m not familiar with so it’s neat that we can all learn from each other (even if I did have to explain Lou Reed to them).
Overall, it’s been amazing. I am killing it. In my most demanding class, we had to write a massive, in-class essay and I thought mine was not super-great but I got an A, which means I need to believe in myself a little more.
Next semester is going to be challenging as fuck, since I’m going to be taking 5 classes and the scheduling works out in such a way that Mondays and Thursdays are going to suuuuuuuuuuuuuuck, but it’s going to be good - I am a time-management wizard (thanks to parenthood) and I’ve got the family mostly trained to do the things that I am currently not doing in favor of schoolwork.
It’s the best (and most expensive) decision I’ve ever made and I’m so glad I’m doing it.