My relationship has hit its first big hurdle. That hurdle takes the form of my massive amounts of emotional baggage.
Abuse talk ahead.
I've physically, emotionally, and sexually abused by my family, and a couple of partners, AND one particularly sinister flatmate.
I live a pretty normal, relatively happy life day to day, but at times like these, when I'm dealing with a lot of other stress (yay unemployment), some of that past hurt slips through the cracks. It did today. And I did what I like to think most people in my position would do - I talked to my partner about it.
He is the first (non therapist) person to whom I've told the full story. And his reaction was a little disconcerting.
He basically told me he doesn't want to hear about it. I got a big THANKS BUT NO THANKS, go see a therapist, and don't bring it up again.
I understand that it's some pretty heavy shit, and I get where he's coming from. And to be fair he did hug me and tell me how none of it was my fault etc etc.
But still, I can't help but feel really let down and hurt, and more than a little embarrassed.