I just decided tonight that I'm going to petition for a mental health leave from my graduate program, because I am not going to finish this term like I thought. I've been overwhelmed with anxiety and unable to sleep, or focus, or write for weeks and something's gotta give.

I'm grappling with a lot of... feelings. I feel like a screw-up and a failure for not finishing and for letting my anxiety get so out of control before seeking help. I am nervous about writing to my supervisor to tell her what is going on (even though she's a wonderful, non-judgmental, supportive person). But mostly, I'm relieved.

Ugh, graduate school. You're such a mindfuck.