I turn 30 tomorrow. Last Friday, while making plans with the guy I has been dating for months, I got really sad and thought about just ignoring the day altogether. Now I recognize that as a warning sign that I wasn't where I wanted to be at 30. He wasn't planning things himself or suggesting ways to celebrate, and I picked out my own presents. (For his birthday I went all out and picked out a bunch of big and small presents for him.)

So a couple of friends are going to take me to dinner, rather than me having dinner at the restaurant with him that I'd picked out and reserved. I am bummed but feeling as if my original plans, which were tiring to make, would not have brought me much joy.