Hi all! I broke my toe (well, we are still waiting on x-rays to confirm but whatever happened, I messed it up good) - the big toe on my left foot in what was a very stupid and clumsy bicycling misadventure.
Broken toes seem like they are not a huge deal (not the worst broken bone for sure!) but they come with some problems for me, both practically (I bike to work which is about a mile away and can’t really afford parking so getting there is going to be a pain now), but also emotionally/mentally. I struggle with ED and sort of compulsive working out. I work out pretty much every day, although I try to force myself to take one day off a week. I don’t remember the last time I took more than one day off in a row of working out, but it’s been years. My first panic attack ever was going to my gym and finding they were unexpectedly closed for the day and standing there on the sidewalk not knowing what to do. Working out keeps me sane and is sort of also what allows me to feel like I can eat.
Anyway...I’m wondering what the hell to do with myself. I know I am going to freak out. I do not want to freak out and be triggered back into ED stuff. I also use exercise to deal with a lot of emotional stuff and I’m worried about that as well. I’m worried I’ll stop eating because I’ll feel like I’m getting fat not working out (I’ve gained a few pounds in the last year to which has already been worrying me). Im worried I’ll then binge after not eating for a while because hey, thats what I do.
I don’t know barely anything about weight training but I am guessing I could maybe still go to the gym and do upper body training, especially seated so I don’t put weight on my toe? I would love advice about exercises to do. I’d also love to stretch more and be more flexible, but again, it would be a limited amount of stretching I could do, mostly sitting, while I can’t put weight on my foot. There has to be something I can do, right?
And don’t get me started about all the other things in my life this screws up - I’m supposed to travel to San Francisco for Halloween in a week and a half to see my dear friend and I am leaning towards cancelling. I haven’t bought tickets yet, I will still be on crutches and I could really use saving the money. But I feel bad and my friend and I adore Halloween and travel to see each other every year for it and she has a big party. And the Halloween Ball I am going to this weekend.... and my costume I’ve been working on for months :’(
Anyway, all advice and sympathy welcomed please, practical or emotional! I know this isn’t the worst thing in the world but it’s exactly the sort of injury that happens to pull all my triggers.