This is one of those horribly depressing and pathetic posts, so please, look frequently at this hilarious picture to help get through it. It's okay to laugh.

So I'm at the phase of a breakup where I've been keeping my shit together and now it's all just starting to fall apart. I still can't believe this is all happening, although it's been a few months now and I've moved out, etc.

For the past two nights, I've woken up with nightmares, looked over, realized he wasn't there and that I had no one to comfort me, and that I was alone now. There's no one to comfort me when I wake up in the middle of the night anymore. Then I cry. And maybe fall back asleep 15 minutes before I have to get back up to go to work.

And... how do I be okay with this? I've spent 6 years with someone who I could roll over and touch and go back to sleep when I was scared. This is like the worst feeling I've ever had. And I'm exhausted. It seems like such a long journey. I still love my ex, and it seems like it will take forever for me to fall out of love, find a new person, and get to that point again. I can't do this for that long. I'm 30 - this is my first breakup up of a long term relationship since I spent most of my 20s dating this guy.