Driving this morning in my cloud of white guilt, I kept thinking of how much I thought people I know wouldn’t vote Trump. They said they wouldn’t, for fuck’s sake. My office full of Republicans would all stand around talking shit about him - even until recently. Taking this for granted, and knowing they are somewhat assholes politically, I just let everything slide. I’m not in a swing state, it’s fine. But you know what? It doesn’t matter because the sentiment is the same - the racists are emboldened because of their numbers.
POCs, feel free to roll your damn eyes at me, because I feel so suddenly stupid. I thought I was doing a good enough job listening to “woke” people but like, I didn’t UNDERSTAND it. The skepticism and the pessimism and faithlessness you had in white people, I didn’t FEEL it no matter what. I believe I am FEELING some fraction of it now, mixed in with grieving the loss of loved ones to this cancer I don’t want anything to do with.
This pain is pain white liberals need to experience right now. Oh, Cognitive Dissonance, how I miss thee. Throw tomatoes at me. I deserve it.
For a change of tone, I’m listing all the actions I have taken so far. I think we need to have this conversation frequently and not lose this momentum. Also, list any ideas you have or things you want to do, get help with, etc.
- Set up recurring donations to ACLU and Planned Parenthood.
- Bought a subscription to the Washington Post (because I think they did an amazing job this election cycle and I want them to keep doing it).
- Signed up to phone bank for Foster Campbell (although someone did call me, they are apparently pretty overwhelmed so I haven’t gotten any instruction on actually doing this yet). He is a democratic candidate for senate that has an outside chance of winning Louisiana’s runoff election on Dec. 10th. Full disclosure: he is anti-choice but literally everyone on the ticket who had a shot was. His record on women’s issues (like trying to keep guns out of the hands of domestic abusers) is good though.
- Inquired about becoming a legal observer for protests (haven’t heard back).
I am leaving for France for Thanksgiving week, and after that I want to do some more concrete things.
PS. Is anyone else like, DYING to quit their job suddenly? I’m having trouble doing things that have no meaning.