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Do Super Happy People Get On Your Nerves?

In recent days, separate people have sent me notes saying 'I hope your Tuesday is AWESOME!" and "I can't believe how fast the weight is coming off! I love vegetables!" and to top it off, my coworker is doing some weird "Thankful November" thing where she posts these "I'm thankful for my awesome husband and boys." Every. Day.

I am not good at dealing with these kinds of people. I mostly don't reply, because if I did, it would be sarcastically. They may live longer, according to studies, but it's mostly because I'm not allowed to kill them.

I am grateful for my life. I have a job. I have cats who every now and then will throw me a morsel of snuggly. I have people I'm friendly with. But it has never been AWESOME and it has never. ever. been easy.

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Depression and anxiety haunt me every day. I have no stable place in my life. I'm now the size of Snufalufagus and I wish I was invisible like he used to be. Losing weight was never easy. Making friends was never easy. The only thing that ever came easy was losing myself in a book.

Yes, I sound bitter. But I don't begrudge these people their happiness. I guess I wish that I could feel it. No, that's not true. Because even when I had a boyfriend and I was thinner and loved my job - I never went around waving a flag of joy.

Anyway, I'm not allowed to complain about happy people in public because I get those looks you get when you also say you don't want babies. Thoughts..

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