"I remember being hugely troubled by the language many of the speakers and health educators would use about their experiences: that 'eating disorders were about power and control, not beauty'. As if this were a dichotomy. As if beauty were something other than a system of control and domination. There is nothing shallow about beauty; I have drowned in it. My anorexia had everything to do with affluent white womanhood, something not available to me, but that I was systemically surrounded by. It had everything to do with heterosexuality: an aspiration for 'proper and dignified' white womanhood – that is ultimately desirable to white masculinity."
Full piece at Black Girl Dangerous
ETA: Just btw, I didn't write this. The author is Janani Balasubramanian and you find her blog at queerdarkenergy.com.