First, thank you for all the support regarding statistics. It means the world to me.
I failed the midterm. It's on a curve, but I believe that a 57% is something like a D- on said curve. So, combined with the shitty grades I've been getting on my quizzes, homework, and labs, things aren't looking good. I think I'll either fail the class or get a passing D, which means I have to take a science class. I can do that, but I would rather spend my last quarter doing what I want to do. Oh well, I really hope I don't fail. I don't want to re-take any math. Probability is going ok, but other than that, I feel like nothing makes sense.
I always got bad grades in math. In elementary school, I cried and refused to go because we were learning math. I got D's in high school. I managed to get into a very well known college, based on my writing (on that subject, thank you to everyone who replied to my post the other day about getting my writing groove back). A school people would kill to get into. But regarding math grades, I always sucked it up and kept a brave face on. This time I just couldn't.
I began to almost cry during my lab, and had to go home instead of lecture. I know, bad idea, and that sounds like I was overreacting. But it was just...I broke. I went home and cried, but I took my mind off of it for a while by figuring out that I could get dat ca$h money for recycling my old Apple stuff. So...new iPad in the future?
I know it's not the end of the world, but I feel like I'm doing so much-tutor twice a week (going up to three times a week), office hours, almost everything-that I can't do anything else. I know sorta what I'm doing, but everything goes out the window when I take tests. And do everything else. I'm an optimistic person, but I'm drained. I got in touch with all my resources at school, and the professor. Doing some damage control. I guess that's the best I can do.
But I hate putting on that fucking brave face. But I can't let this break me. I took yesterday off from everything stats related, but I'm sure as hell not giving up. I don't do that. But...it just takes everything out of me when I know I'm doing everything I, but still get the same results as my history with math. I just...I feel so dead.
Edit: Thanks everyone. I feel more alive. Onward and upward! :D