Well, I started taking anti-depressants about 3 weeks ago. I think I’m finally starting to feel a little better. I’ve had no energy or motivation. I was really not keeping up with tasks at work or home. Things were piling up and of course that was giving me anxiety which lead to me putting it off more.
I tackled some stuff at work I’d been putting off dreading on Friday. It felt good.
Today, I cleaned the shit out of my apartment. I’m very tidy day to day and sort of clean as I go so it never gets bad, but I hadn’t tackled any big tasks like mopping or big time dusting in awhile and it was starting to show. Even after that I had the energy to shop. I was running out of everything since I’d been doing only the bare min of food shopping. I even went to Trader Joes (huge mistake on Sunday!). I even did some meal prep and cooking for the week. It’s the most I’ve done....in months (I’m ashamed to say that).
I hope this means I’m doing better. I don’t feel happier, but I feel able to get shit done and that feels very good. I feel functional. It’s been great to have some support here too so thanks everyone. Here’s to hoping 2019 is better.