Usually I don't mind being single. But sometimes, I get a lonely pang in my heart. It's been a while since I've had a decent guy in my life. Sometimes I even get jelly of my sisters who CONSTANTLY have something going on. I know they are way more afraid of singledom than I am, and they develop feelings way easier. I wish I knew more prospects though. It's not even just sexual. I mean, my hormones are KILLING me, but I mostly crave intimacy. I miss being held and kissed.

This feeling doesn't last long, but it sucks.

When I like a guy it tends to run very deep and be connected to friendship. I fell in love with the two guys I've been involved with. I refuse to get a boyfriend for the sake of it, and that's awesome. But ughhhhhhhhh.