I am overwhelmed.
I have a ton of work to do (33 paragraph-length report card comments personalized to each student, due Thursday morning).
I have a paper due in a month that I've barely even started researching yet.
I posted a while back about the summer course in my MA program that I didn't want to take but probably had to; now I don't even know if I can take it at all because I may need surgery on my ankle and won't be able to (a) drive to class or (b) get to class on campus.
It hurts to walk and stand a lot, AKA my whole job, and I feel weird drawing attention to it even though I should probably be exempted from some requirements.
I'm getting a bunch of bloodwork (already called out of work tomorrow) to rule out a variety of things, but it's probably the big cyst in my ankle joint and they'll have to take it out anyway. I hate surgery, but I hate a constantly irritated foot even more.
I'm waiting for word of my "financial need" documents have gotten to my grad school yet to see if they can still give me that scholarship I was awarded and then rescinded because I couldn't prove need. I'm trying not to get my hopes up because chances are I still can't keep it, but deep down I really truly desperately want it. (I seriously owe the department chair a giant bottle of good wine; she's been calling the financial aid department on my behalf to pester them about the paperwork. I know she'd give it to me if she could)
There's an academic conference I think would be perfect for a paper I have, but I've got 9 million other things to be doing right now and I think if it got rejected (likely) I'd just cry for days.
I'm so distracted by worrying about things that I feel like I can't get anything done. I just want to curl up under a blanket with a bag of Mini-Eggs and pretend it's all fixed.
If I knew a good therapist around here I would probably start up again but that's an hour I should be doing work.
I could use some gifs to cheer me up/motivate/distract me.