I have insomnia and other wonderful conditions which keep me from sleeping. So last night, I got my sleeping pills and my painkillers. I took them at 9:45 and nothing happened. I didn't fall asleep until after 4:00, probably closer to 4:30. I had to cancel today's appointment. Again.
I wake up at about 7:45 to banging coming through the wall. My mother had decided to empty out a side table/chest thing to take it up to the cottage and is being as loud as she possibly could be: dropping shit, dragging things around. I was so pissed. Her reaction when I stormed out of my room?
I don't think it was that loud.
It woke me out of a deep sleep! My severely sleep deprived self woke up because of your fucking banging.
After that, I found out that she's been hiding the Robaxacet from me. When I've been having trouble sleeping because of back-related pain that my prescriptions aren't helping.
I'm just so tired and sore and angry right now. These past 2 nights I really needed my sleep so I could make these appointments. I don't know if I can reschedule. I might be persona non-grata there, so you know, that's not stressful.
So fuck you very much mom for all that you do. And if there is a passive aggressively clipped newspaper article about 'healthy eating' or 'job searching' or 'depression' on the dining room table, I WILL SHRED IT and leave the scraps on your bed like a fucking horse head.
UPDATE: Fuck you, PC Points app for not loading so I cannot get any fucking PC points at the motherfucking grocery store.
Fuck you, road crew of some sort, for digging up the sidewalk in such a way that I have to fucking jaywalk, walk half a block and then cross back to get to the aforementioned motherfucking grocery store.
FUCK YOU SO MUCH GROCERY STORE FOR NOT CARRYING SUGAR-FREE CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM AND MAKING ME SETTLE FOR BUTTERSCOTCH RIPPLE. IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR SOME FUCKING CHOCOLATE? YOU UNSYMPATHETIC FUCKS.
Also, fuck you mom. Once again, you've made me so mad that I bought shitty food to eat to get back at you. I'm trying to get healthy but your bullshit is triggering my weird revenge eating thing and now I'm going to eat too much crappy food and be sick all weekend. You give me a fucking eating disorder. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?