So my friends are pretty internet famous. They work their asses off making internet comedy for a variety of places, and they get the recognition they deserve. I owe a lot of my twitter following to appearing on some of their projects, and I've always tried my best to not be an asshole about it or try to get more fame by piggybacking off of them.

But since I'm not a member (or dating a member) of the crew, I end up on the outside of a lot of hangouts and meetups and stuff. Some of it is for work, but some of it isn't.

I am envious of these people and I wish I was part of the group. I *do* like the level of attention I get, when I get it. It's pretty intoxicating

I'm not actively creating stuff right now. I don't have a blog or a webcomic or a Youtube series. I don't really have the energy to do it all on my own and do it well, to be honest. I probably won't do these things at all, since I'm hoping to get into grad school and that'll take up a lot of my time. I know that this is a case of my friends just having a very unique job compared to mine, but I still get jealous as fucking hell. It's frustrating, and *whisper* part of me kinda looks forward to moving away to a city where I have friends who aren't as busy, and with whom I can hang more often without me wishing I had their lives.