Hey GT, it feels like it’s been awhile! I wanted to drop a line here and offer some updates on what’s been going on in my little corner. Specifically, I wanted to tell you all how the talk with my cousin and his wife went. Here’s the backstory post again:
We met last night and it went way better than I ever could have expected. They both apologized profusely and it was sincere and shockingly honest...like, “we handled this in just about the most shitty way possible and there’s no excuse and we are incredibly sorry.” His wife cried and even said, straight up, that she’s got major problems with being jealous and harshly judgmental that are all about her and have nothing to do with me as a person, and that she completely projected her insecurities onto me. My cousin said that he loves me more than just about anyone else in the entire world and that they are both committed to working on their issues so that they can rebuild their relationship with me. They even brought me a peacemaking gift- a love lock they bought for me in Paris when they went to Europe this past spring. And, I told them very clearly and honestly how much the whole scenario had hurt me and that I never want to feel that way ever again, but that I could tell that they meant what they said and that I love them too and am willing to recommit to our relationship. We all acknowledged that we are very different people with different lifestyles but that we are going to do our best to communicate honestly and without judgment from here on out. I am very relieved and impressed with their overall maturity and acknowledgement of what went wrong and how they’re willing to do things differently.
In other news, things with Boyfriend are continuing to go really well. Things just feel easy, light and free, and I feel like I can truly trust him because he’s really making an effort to help me feel secure and give me what I need. I have no complaints whatsoever.