So I'm power-watching Buffy and I just finished Tabula Rasa (the one where Giles leaves, after Once More With Feeling.) I knew The Body and the episodes after that would be bad, because my mom died 2 1/2 years ago and I'm still kind of reeling, and they were pretty rough. But Giles leaving... fuck. It hit me so hard. I feel like I've been grieving in some form or other for the past 11 years; grieving the end of my marriage, my son's autism diagnosis (which never really goes away), two failed relationships, my mom... How could Giles leave, after finding out what she'd been through? I'm so mad at him. I realize he's fictional. I have issues.

So anyway. It's been a rough night and I'm feeling very lonely. I'm going to go look at the gifs from Fluffy's gif party. If it were earlier I'd watch the next few episodes so the Spike/Buffy action could distract me, but it's bedtime. Damn.