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GT, I love you but you're bringing me down

It's not you, it's me. Seriously, I think I have a problem.

I was up waaaaay too late internetting last night. The latest I've ever been doing absolutely nothing- one minute I was updating my antivirus the next I was lost in Tumblr and GT and Huffpo and I don't even remember. I tried to not internet today but my roommate asked me to check movie times for a film we were planning on seeing and then: boom. I was back off the wagon in the mud. I lose track of time so easily.


I'd been pretty attached to my computer since college but it was always at pretty normal, healthy levels. Then Sokka dumped me right around the time I got an office temp job. There I was, miserable and lonely, with all this free time on my hands both at home and at work (my job was boring and easy). I started going on Jez, I found you all, I got attached. When I left that job for part time bar tending I had even more time on my hands and my schedule isolated me even more from my friends. Then I fought with my ex roomies, I moved out, I met and lost exGod, my friend moved away, the shit with Sokka- I'm becoming increasingly more isolated and I'm relying on you guys far too much to fill that void, to make the hours more bearable until it's time to sleep or go to my next therapy session or meet one of the few IRL friends I have in this city. TL;DR: It's not healthy anymore.

So for the next 30 days I'm going on a hardcore internet purge. No non-essential internetting. Video streaming for an hour per day max (I can roll over my video allowance for movies). No computer in bed, no computer before or during breakfast, no computer an hour before bed, and bed on the weekdays by 4am.

I'm not sure what I'll do to get through the seemingly endless hours in the day, but I'll figure it out. At least I'll be able to get more writing done, right? There are some books I've been meaning to read. I'm going to be really lonely, though, without you all. You'll probably not miss me, but I'll miss you. I'll see you in a month- on a restricted basis- so it won't really be goodbye, right? Just goodbye for now.




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