What's everyone up to this weekend?
Today I have an appointment at a local university to talk about transferring there from my current community college to finish my four year degree. I can't believe how quickly the last four semesters have flown by. I realized the other day, that while there's still a lot of work ahead of me, I could be close to the end of my master's degree in 4 or 5 years from now. Really, that's a brief period of time in the grand scheme of things, and my life could very well be totally different. It's encouraging. Also, my advisor here told me that with my GPA I have basically my choice of any college in my state, which was great to hear. Depression fucked up my early academic career and my grades were really low back then from basically not giving a shit about myself or my future so it's cool seeing how much things have changed. I have worked my butt off because I feel like I finally deserve it, and it's paying off.
Also, tonight I am hanging out with my good guy friend that I think I am developing romantic feelings for. We have been hanging out more one on one lately, and last weekend I went to his house alone for the first time. We sat up and talked for three or four hours and shared a bottle of white wine, but nothing else happened. I am interested to see if anything else unfolds, but I am a little wary of just making a move or being too brazen because I know he has some past trauma that could make that not go over well. I just want to be sensitive and and not do anything that could rush things or cause any discomfort. I think if we keep spending time like this a time will come where we will discuss what's going on, if anything, but for right now... it's just nice to have the companionship without a ton of extra pressure.
Tomorrow I am dead set and determined to un-fuck my apartment this weekend. It's gotten ridiculous in the amount of clutter and mess, and is causing me a crazy amount of anxiety, but luckily I have no other obligations tomorrow before 8pm so I should be able to make a sizable dent in it. I'm not quite sure how I have managed to let it get this bad when technically I've had (slightly) more free time since quitting my job to focus on school, but... I am cleaning it tomorrow and that is what matters, right? I wish I was one of those people that's just naturally organized and motivated towards keeping a tidy living space.
Also, question for cat owners: do you know anything about treating a cat for separation anxiety? I think Catface is having some real problems with me being out of the house for more than a few hours, and I'm not sure what to do outside of playing with him/cuddling him more. I can't afford to get another cat for him to have some companionship right now, both from a cost standpoint and also because my place is 420 square feet and it just wouldn't be a good idea.