I have complex PTSD and gender dysphoria, both of which are brain things. And, to express it technically, we still basically know fuck all about the brain. As a result, my specialists have no confidence in rhe treatments they recommend.

What happens in such situations is that they...leave treatment decisions to the patient.

This is...terrible for me. But it is what it is, I guess. We know more in 2018 than we did in 1918 and we’ll know more in 2118 than we do know. That’s just reality.

In the meantime, I’m stuck with this lovely trial and error process. It’s frustrating. I feel so guilty when I melt down and annoy yall. On the other hand, I’m literally just trying to stay alive here. So if I annoy a few people in the process, I probably shouldn’t lose sleep over that. It’s already hard enough to sleep....

So I have to start down the psychiatric med route again. Which I’m the opposite of thrilled about, since 8 different meds over five years just landed me in an emergency room.

There have been successful MDMA trials with PTSD patients. And LSD can be effective. So maybe I should just try that route, given that I’ve already tried the other route and seen the results. Can anyone hook me up....