And he avoided me. We were both at a daytime city festival where my friends had a stand. I never saw him, but I know he was nearby, and one mutual friend said it was nice that he gave me space by staying away.

I don't want to hear that he did something nice by avoiding me - I want to hear that I was enough, and he wasn't, and that I will win and that I will be okay. I want to know that I made the right decision. I want to know that I deserve someone who is passionate about me.

Should I order Chinese food? I drank all day. I am furious. I feel like I have made all the right choices and come up short.