How do I do it guys? I saw the therapist today. She asked me what my biggest fear was and I said "failing... anything." She wanted to know what I was good at and I didn't know what to say. It's been years since I've had any kind of hobby. I told her I was good at my job but I felt a lot of guilt because I think I could be working at a higher level but then I think I'm not busting my ass just to get more work piled on. Then she asked me if I thought I was pretty...

I really didn't want to answer that as honestly as I felt because I always come away feeling like I'm looking for validation. I think I'm pretty unattractive so I just said I was average. She scoffed and told me I was much better looking than average and I had no make up on, a natural beauty! And I'm pretty sure I rolled my eyes at her. She asked me if my husband tells me I'm beautiful and I told her the truth. He used to a whole lot more but I usually have something to say back to him about how I disagree with whatever compliment he gave me or think he's just saying that cuz he wants a blowjob so he's stopped saying it as much. So my assignment is to just say "thank you" when I get a compliment, then she complimented me, I thanked her, but felt so awkward. I'm going to try but it will take a while to get me out of this mindset that I have to minimize positive things.

She also wants me to keep telling myself "I'm a good person, I'm a good mom, I love myself." I mean I'm going to try some positive self talk but I feel so stupid. And I definitely don't believe it. Do you just keep saying it until you believe it?