I’ve been so down lately. I feel so alone. I got a new job a few months ago and while I love what I do now, I’m feeling more and more alone. I’m about 10 years older than most of my coworkers and I feel like I don’t really relate to them. I try to chat with them, making any type of connection I can but I feel like I’m butting in sometimes and overall just feel weird. I spend 8 hours of my day mostly to myself and come home and sit alone. I have one friend that I see regularly-ish but everyone is married or shacked up. I feel like being this alone is giving me more anxiety and making me depressed. Dating is just hella rough. I tried tinder, bumble, etc, and it’s been nothing but awful people (a guy literally texted me last weekend trying to pay for sex after I declined hanging out with him again) to getting regularly ghosted. I feel like I’m stuck at an age where it is hard to meet people but most people are settled down and hanging with their settled down friends or their kids.
I dunno what to do. I keep myself active on the weekends with hiking and activities but it’s getting so lonely by myself. I used to love vacationing alone but the last time I went by myself I just cried a bunch because I wished I was enjoying it with anyone, and I don’t have that.
How do you cope with crushing loneliness? Is there any way to change it once you’re in your 30s?