I don't want to go into details because doxxing, but I just had an Important Conversation about my future grad school plans and it actually went well. Like, I got the answer I wanted and I'm actually kind of optimistic about my chances now.
I mean, I have a LONG way to go before anything is certain, but I see a plan formulating for how I can get where I want to be. I think. Assuming my family will work with me on it.
OMG. Now I'm panicking again.