I’m moving cities to go to school in September. CorgiMan just asked me about making plans in August and I was like “...I’m going to be gone by then” and it all hit me and now I really want to just physically grow roots into this apartment and never fucking leave. I hate that I can’t find a place yet. I have a tendency towards catastrophizing so in my head I am assuming I’ll end up living out of a fucking truck because there won’t be any apartments, I’ll never find something I can afford, and that it’ll all end up being a disaster and my relationship will fall apart.
I really don’t want to leave right now. I just want to curl up in my bed and stay here, where it’s safe and I know where everything is and my partner and best friend won’t be five hours away.