It feels good man.

I've spent the last month or so not being a fucking adult and dealing with my bullshit. It's like I had an epiphany last night.

I'm:

-going to motherfucking therapy and getting back on medication

-I'm going to sell my car to pay off the loan and drive a car that my grandma has just sitting in her driveway

-Since I won't have a car payment anymore I'm going to use the money to pay down the debt I accumulated while being married. I also get a small amount of financial aid assistance from school, so I'm going to rob Peter to pay Paul, but I'll worry about that later.

-I'm failing a class because half of the time I'm too keyed up or tired to go. I'm going to talk to an adviser and see what I can do because I was a transfer student and not all of my credits transferred.

I feel like I've finally figured out how to get my life into some sort of order. I feel like now that I've got this plan everything is going to be okay and that I'm going to be okay. I'm really excited to put this into action. I feel like I'm getting a fresh start.