UPDATE: Thanks for the kind words, everyone. I’m trying to remember that everyone is annoyed by their loved ones sometimes, even me. I still feel pretty upset about the whole thing, but I’ll get over it.
One of my friends said some things today that made me feel like I was right back in high school, trying to be friends with people I admired who clearly found me annoying. I can’t remember the last time I felt this particular brand of sad, but it sucks. I feel stupid and uncool and ashamed of who I am, even though I probably shouldn’t.
My friend is a good person. She is kind and generous to a fault. Her feelings are generally pretty close to the surface so she’s not great at hiding them, and sometimes she can be a little melodramatic or hurtful. Today was different. I feel like she just proved I am an annoying person who is merely tolerated by other people.
I hate this. I thought I’d left these feelings behind years ago. When can I stop caring about what other people think of me?